the whole situation

i decided to write the whole situation that happen here... in the new world i live... my room + my class + my friends + .... the country....

after 5 month i stayed here...

• i wasted my money so much where other people can save it. i ate too much, i spend money on stupid things, i bought junk food too much.


• i have to endure the orientation version indonesia that took 2 months. it is what they called 'Pengkaderan'. It have 3 levels. first, it is SOLMATE. thats took 2 days that is during weekend after puase. then if we pass the 1st level, we have to go to 2nd level that is MPMB (Masa Pengkaderan Mahasiswa Baru) that tooks 3 continous weekends (thats mean 6 days) and if we pass, we have to go to the 3rd level, that is LK1 (Latihan Kader 1) where we have to stay outside of faculty for 2 days.. WE DONE THIS BECAUSE IT IS IMPORTANT FOR OUR GRADUATION AS IT HAVE 2 CREDIT HOUR... (as told by our senior)... so i will tell about it in detail what we done, what we learn and what is it all about...

stranded

when we lived away from our own country... we will talk bad about the country that we lived now especially when we went to the country that is left far behind from our own country... why is that happen? i wonder why... they have many weakness and we will compare with our own country. but why we try to see the good side of them and try to accept them...

everyday i found myself and my fwend talk bad about the country we live now and the people... but the reality is we have to live with them (the people) for 5 years... i dont know how to rid these feeling... and my mind keep telling me everything that they do is wrong... and i alway right!!! what my country done is right !!!

what does it mean, am I narrow minded...???

changing

why people change?

why am i change?

why must i change?

why i changed to new me that i doesn't like?

why i let myself change?