what a tough day!

 

im tired!

how i wish

 

how i wish zana study with me in makassar...

how i wish she still be my study partner...

i want someone who can support me to study... i am not a strong person.. since small, i got someone who encouraged and forced me to study... and i really need someone like them in here..

mad, annoyed, tension, depressed...

 

sound mad, right??

this is the feeling i have been keep all this time since i came here...

this is all related with my own roomate...

searching..

 

we are now searching for house... yesterday we went to a place called Ria (i think...) to see the house. we went with the house owner. the house is not done yet. after the look, we really did not satisfied with the condition of the house...

its so unlike HOME... for me, home is like home...

but this house is so open. actually this is another house that the owner built at the backyard of her own house rented by malaysian student.. she built the house with the limited 'tanah' which appear to be so ugly and unperfect. i mean, the room doesnt in the same size yet she want to charge each room for 5 million which sound crazy and the room seem so small.

the things that i really hate is the room. there is no windows at all... perharp this house is lack of windows. it is really obvious in Makassar that every building is lack of windows.. which is really bad for me... is it because of indon people like to peek on people inside the house so there is not much windows or indon doesnt like sunlight...

i really love sunlight and i love my current table where the sunlight can easily enter the room but mira doesnt really likes sunlight. so i just mengalah... when she is not at the room, i always do things that i like, such as open the window largely and play the music aloud. hehhehe... 

i just hope that we can get the just nice home... i dont want the big house... just nice house where we 7 peoples can fit in... insyallah...

i wonder...

 

i wonder why... i took medic... i been questioning myself million times since the first day of my life as medic student.. especially when i have to study in Indon... which i really hate to be in here...

another things that really made me think and wonder why i took medic is when i see all my friends pictures... my friends whos stdy in US, Japan, South Korea, Russia, Canada... i really want to go to where they went..

but i really envious wit those whos study in Japan and South Korea... sure, its been my dream to be there since a long time a go... i keep wondering why i took medic instead of engineering where i can go to japan or korea...

sometimes, i cried when i think about it...