is too much for me to ask for a TRUE friend

 

is it too much for me???

i didnt need many. it is enough for me for ONE true friend. why? why everytime, i am the one who have to struggle to make friends? why? 

i am not say that i dont like my current friends but i need true friend...

the one friend that i had been close for past 6 months, doesnt really trust me... am i really that bad? am i?

thank you for her, now i been depressed.. i keep crying for a no reason now..

iam missing all my best friends in the past... the one i lost contact, the one who had change, the one who forget me...

iam being left alone by my best friends...

am i really that bad? is it too much for me to ask for a true and best friends who really can support me??